She’s 11 months already…

Closer to 11 1/2 actually.  Sniff.  It’s all so wonderful and so sad all at the same time. She just gets more and more awesome as time goes on.  She gives me these amazing hugs lately.  She slings her little arm around my neck and pulls me in close and nuzzles right into my hair.  I just want to melt into a puddle on the floor.  I close my eyes and savor the moment.  I said to my husband today “isn’t she just so more incredible than you ever imagined?”

Her personality is really alive now.  She is so vocal.  Especially when we go out to the store.  She gets in the cart and she squeals and screams and does her loud “NAY, NAY, NAY, NA NA NAAAAAY!!!”  She gets excited when she sees little kids.  When we strolled into BJ’s the other day, she say two kids in the cart and she points to them and starts with the “ah, ah, ah, ah’s!!!”  Like she’s saying hi!  I’m one of you!! The little kids said hi back to her.  It was the cutest thing ever.  That is one of the things I never knew about having a baby.  They enhance your social life.  I’ve never had so many strangers talk to me in my life.  Well, they really talk to Sweetness.  I am normally a quiet, reserved person and she has made me come out of my shell.

I love how she is just herself.  No apologies, no caring what anybody thinks, no worrying what she looks like.  She’s her and everybody can just deal with it, ya know? I love that about babies.  They are so in the moment.  So whole.  So perfect.

She loves playing on the stairs.  I have yet to get a gate and I know I should but at the advice of a very experienced Mom I know (her kids are all grown now) she told me to teach her how to come down the stairs.  So I did.  I only had to show her twice. She is now a pro at come down all 12 stairs on her belly.  Always supervised of course.

She has been standing since 10 months but shows no real signs of wanting to walk which is totally fine with me.  She’s starting to stand on her own but that is about it.

Still waiting for new teeth.  God why does it take FOREVER for those things to come in?  She actually let me put my finger in her mouth and she is working on a molar!  I gasped when I felt the huge mound in her gum.  My poor child.

She still doesn’t sleep through the night.  BUT, she wakes less frequently and she takes awesome afternoon naps.  Today she slept for 2 hours (and so did I)!  Her morning nap is still crap but oh well.

Her eating is great – she tries anything I put in front of her.  But I feel like with her allergies, her food choices are so limited.  I am feeding her the same rotation of food and even I start to get bored with it so I can imagine she must too.  I just started giving her more seasoned/flavored foods and she did really well.

I’m planning her birthday party and I’m equal parts excited and sad.  Where the hell did this year go?  Last year at this time, I couldn’t even imagine what June 2010 would be like.  Now here I am, on the cusp of her 1st birthday.  Damn.

Motherhood is honestly the most wonderful that has ever happened to me in my life. It has enhanced my personality and I can’t wait to see how I continue to evolve as my little one continues to evolve and grow.

Here is a pic of Sweetness doing one of her favorite things…..don’t worry, Daddy was spotting her 🙂

Before I Forget…

I’d like to write down memories I have of Sweetness during her first year of life (which is sadly coming to a close).  I was inspired by this post on one of my favorite blogs, My Mom Genes.  Most of these thoughts and memories won’t mean anything to anyone except me and I’m not even talking about milestones or when she got her first teeth.  I am talking about moments, smiles, Sweetness’ preferences, special times, days that have truly enhanced my life beyond anything that I could have imagined.  So here goes….

I used to dance with you when you were a newborn….you loved to be walked and carried during your fussy time and I put music on and would just dance with you and I loved it.

Sometimes when you couldn’t sleep at night I’d lay you across my belly and you could sleep there for hours – I even fell asleep too!

Up until you were 10 months, when you got excited, happy or scared you’d kick your legs like crazy.  It was so cute.

You cry or yell at me when I leave the room.

You need to warm up to others first before you let them hold you.  If someone tries to hold you right away, you cry or desperately reach for me.

You went through the 4 month wakeful period and you’d wake up so happy and think everything was so funny….I even caught myself laughing with you despite the 2:30 am wake up.

This morning you looked directly at me and said “Mama”.  It was beautiful.

Nursing has been such an amazing bonding experience with you.

Up until you were about 9 months old, you only wanted me at bedtime.

Earlier this week we went in an elevator and I was carrying you, when the doors shut and the elevator started to move, you held onto my arm tightly.  So sweet.

Starting at about 7 months old you fell in love with music and would dance anytime you heard a rhythm.

Sometimes in the afternoon we lay down together and take awesomely long naps. It’s heaven.

You love balloons and flowers.

Daddy loved it when you took naps on him when you were a newborn (and I think you did too!).

You love to grab Daddy’s glasses.

You are not an easy, laid back baby but I love that about you.  I like that you don’t give up until your needs are met.  I feel like it makes me a better mother for some reason. You’ve taught me so much.

The first few times you sat up in a grocery cart you cried and were scared because it was something new.  I found myself carrying you in one hand and pushing the cart with the other!

During your first winter we used to push you in the stroller around the house for fun.

So far, I don’t need to gate the stairs.  I showed you twice how to come down on your belly and you are a pro.

I cherish the time we spend together and look forward to creating many more memories.